You Pushed Me This Far

Today I started my new job. Still in retail but that's not important. For it being the first place I applied, got a call back and got hired I should be jumping up and down in joy. But I'm not. I find myself currently walking around my current job. Yes I'll now be having two jobs. Also not that important right now. I'm here wondering, why do I feel so much like shit after this existing day? I'll tell you why, After no longer wanting to be treated like shit at my current job I decided to take action and apply at places. Without telling anyone. Yeah okay maybe I should had spoken to someone. And I did mention it to a manager a few times that I was unhappy. But every time I did all they would do was hear me wrong or ... point being it was never fixed or looked at. I was always pushed aside. So why did I have to tell them when I started to apply at places?

After my first shift at my new job was over I went to my current job to tell them my availability has changed. Right when I was about to tell the manager they both stop me and say "Why are you leaving us? You are one of our valuable employees. We need you."

OKKKKAY. First of all who said anything about leaving? I'm going to work both jobs. One in the morning and one at night. Second of all don't tell me i'm a valuable employ. What did you do when I expressed my frustration? What did you do when I complained and tried to get something fixed? It has been three months now that I've felt no more less than crap. I work my butt off for what? I don't ask for much, just some respect. If you say i'm valuable, why do I find myself coming home crying over stupid shit that you guys do? No one should feel like they are less than anything.

So you know what? I'm not sorry I didn't tell you I found a new job. I'm not sorry I'm going to give them my 100% and only you my 10%. You asked for this. You pushed me to do this. So, no i'm not sorry.

XOXO,
JAE NO LONGER GIVING A FXK

Remembering My First Job

On Wednesdays we wear pink! HAHA. Okay. Okay.

So on Wednesdays I wake up early and go to my Math class that is located on the other side of the world. Usually when I get out of class I stay on campus and do my homework to make the drive worth it. Lately I've been coming home right after class because of feels. Today was no exception. But today I was hungry so I decided to make a stop at my old job and get me some food. Now like many kids in high school or freshly graduated we tend to work in fast food or retail because those are the jobs that are more flexible to our demands and schedules. For my first job I was as a cashier at mcd’s. I was there for … I can’t decide if it was a year or a year and a half. For it being my first job I can’t really complain. The down side to it was I was being worked like a dog. Yeah I was making 400+ $ in a week for a fast food joint. But gosh darn it, I was miserable. I remember countless of times coming home crying to my mother and telling her things my managers or customers would do to me. I remember asking for vacation time, coming back to work for not even a month then quitting that place. That was the best day of my life. I just called them and said “YO! I’m out of this Bitch”. Okay I didn’t say that but I did call to quite. I’m only saying this because today while I went to visit my old coworkers (and get nasty food that left my tummy upset) my old manager asked me when I was returning to work with them. I couldn’t help but laugh. It has been two years now that I stopped working at that place. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not here to talk trash or anything like that. I’m just here to say first jobs are very important in one's growing process. If it wasn’t for that place I wouldn’t be the me today (yes it does sound silly, but take it from me!). I remember I used to be so shy I would try to avoid eye contact with everyone so I wouldn’t have to speak to them. Now I feel more outspoken and edger to talk. In a way I'm also more outspoken and don't let people walk all over me. I stand up for myself now. If your are just looking for a first job, keep in mind anything and everything you learn will be worth it at the end of the day. And if you're like me, your first job won't be your last. Strive for bigger and better. Never settle for less. Don’t make fast food your life time job.

Xoxo,

Jae♥

old photo of me in what looks like my uniform back then ♥♥♥

March 2016 || IPSY Glam Bag

HELLO, Spring!!

This bag will be my 9th bag I received from IPSY. The second bag I create a video for. And the first bag I write a more honest review for. The reason i’m writing this review is because from where I stand IPSY has gained many more followers. And there may be some girls (and guys) wanting to know a little bit more about IPSY and if it's worth it. Later on i’ll write a post of what I think about IPSY, but for now let me get started with this wonderful bag.

March's theme was spring. With every bag they include a cute little post card looking thing. Mine was of @Chrisspymakeup ♥♥♥ I personally like the photos they add because they just tie everything together.

Beau Gâchis® Paris

Eye shadow Brush

Simple yet useful eyeshadow brush. I wouldn’t say i’m new to makeup, but i’m pretty new to makeup. So being the nub I am I would say the brush doesn’t matter. But let me tell you! It really does make the difference. The brush really matters. This brush is so soft and smooth.

9 out of 10

TEMPTU

Warm Glow Bronzer

I’ve never been much of a bronzer fan. Nor did I really know how to apply it. When I first got a bronzer from IPSY, I didn’t know what to do it. Once I tried it, WOOW. It really does make a difference. When you know how to apply it correctly that is. And there are a ton of youtube videos that can help you on how to contour. I already own the TARTE bronzer (thanks to IPSY) so when I received this one I was a bit excited. Just as the name says ‘warm glow bronzer’ it does just that. When I first applied it, it gave me a warm glow to my face. Great for spring/summer.

10 out of 10

essence cosmetics

make me brow eyebrow gel mascara

This eyebrow gel is a life saver. My eyebrows tend to be thin and spotty. And that’s just not cute. Just with a simple brush of my eyebrows, BAM! They look perfect and i’m ready to walk out of the door. Now obviously if you want instagram eyebrows you’ll need to do a lot more than just this eyebrow mascara. But if you don’t have time to do all that work, this little guy will do.

9 out of 10

NYX Cosmetics

Liquid Suede Cream Lipstick

When I first heard of this liquid matte lipstick I wanted to try it so bad! And look I got one in my bag! Unfortunately I do not like the color one bit. It is way to barbie pink for me. So i’ll probably end up going to buy another one. One my color. But the reason I’m willing to go buy one is because it really is long lasting !!! And very pigmented! It doesn't smear so easily like other lipgloses. If it wasn’t for the ugly pink, I think this would have been my favorite item this month. So close, so close. But no good.

9 out of 10

Marc Anthony

Nourishing Argan Oil of Morocco 3 Day Smooth Perfect Blow Dry Cream

Last but not least … (what?) I recently got into home blowouts. And wanted to buy a product that made my blow out last longer. Funny, it's like IPSY know exactly what i’m looking for and into at the moment! I used this product once and it did leave my hair feeling soft for 3+ days. But at the same time, it wore my hair down a lot and made it all sad looking. I didn’t really appreciate that. It could be that I applied too much or didn’t apply it right. I will try it one more time and see how I really feel about it.

Well that was my IPSY bag review and talk. I hope you found it useful in some ways. Don’t forget to check out my video on here, and if you end up wanting a bag yourself, use my code [;

Till next time

Xoxo,

Jae